2.27.10

Doesn't this boy look so old?

So I'm writing this blog post on Sunday even though this picture is for Saturday. But tonight I have been reminded how lucky I am to have this healthy precious boy in my life. I have read a few different blogs tonight where other parents baby's are dying, sick with cancer, or have passed away. As I read the blogs, I wanted to go scoop Holden out of bed, give him a big hug, kiss him, and rock him back to sleep while he is safely in my arms. It makes me want to take back the time today where I lost my patience and told him to stop screaming. I want to cherish every moment I have with him. Every night I sing him a couple songs and say a prayer where I ask Heavenly Father to keep Holden safe, warm, and have good dreams as he sleeps and that he will be a healthy boy. I love Holden more than words can describe, he came into our life unexpectedly but I wouldn't want my life any other way. I am so grateful for Holden, he teaches me patience, love, happiness, kindness, and how to be a better mother. Holden L. Youngberg, I love you.

I also want Holden to know how much I love his father. I know I have said it before, but Kurt has transformed into a wonderful dad. But he is also an amazing husband and I know our bond and relationship has grown stronger since having Holden. We have gone through our ups and downs the past year but we have learned how to communicate more effectively which in turn helped us grow as partners. Kurt, you are incredible inside and out, I love you!

At the end of the "365 days of pictures," I want to publish this blog into a book and give it to Holden. I want him to know how deep my love is for him and I am honored to be his mother.

Ok, sappy post is done :)